Total pages in book: 160
Estimated words: 158635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 793(@200wpm)___ 635(@250wpm)___ 529(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 158635 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 793(@200wpm)___ 635(@250wpm)___ 529(@300wpm)
Any way.
Even if it’s in fantasy only.
It’s not about power play. It’s about giving up control and gaining the power to have the ability to stop something so monstrous with a word.
It’s a fine line, which is why this kink shouldn’t be done with a stranger or an arbitrary person.
I don’t know how the girls in this club do it, but I know I wouldn’t be able to if it wasn’t Lan.
I trust him.
Which is why I’m willing to show him this part of me.
Like earlier, every time I’ve attempted to talk, to express what’s inside me, words fail me, so action is all I have left. This means putting myself in a vulnerable position as I did during that nightmare, but it’s different now. Lan isn’t that scum.
Lan wouldn’t use my trust against me.
I type in my login with steady fingers.
So, yes, I created an account soon after I heard about this from Creighton and paid the membership fees. But I didn’t attend or pick an event.
I did go there once because they had to confirm my identity and age in person, and I kind of bolted out of the club wearing a blazer and a hat once the process was done.
Are you ready to unleash your kink, Featherless03? appears as soon as I’m logged in.
I click on Yes and then I’m presented with a list of kinks and fetishes the club could arrange.
Some of them are completely new to me and I researched each and every one of them the last time I opened the app. Let’s just say I’m slightly traumatized by some.
Like I’m sure others would be if they were to see me click Primal Play.
I agree with the disclaimers that say I should know this type of kink is one of the most sensitive and to read more about it in the link they’ve attached.
I visited that link another time, but it was nothing compared to all the reading I’ve been doing about the topic since I started noticing how different I am.
Thank you for your interest in ‘Primal Play’. Reminder, all our members submit clean STD tests periodically, but we suggest using a condom during any act. Your sexual safety matters.
That makes sense. I did select that I’m on birth control when I signed up the first time, so they already know that. After I click on ‘I understand’, I’m directed to the following page.
Please take your time to answer the following questionnaire as attentively as possible so we can select the right partner for you.
Would you like to be the one performing primal play or the one to have the primal play performed on?
Performed on.
Do you want your partner to be a man, a woman, or non-binary?
Man.
Body type?
Muscular.
Blond(e), Brunet(te) or other (please specify)?
Brunet.
Do you want your partner masked or not?
I hesitate before I click on Masked.
It’s true that I’m showing this part of me, but maybe we’re not ready for face-to-face yet.
I click on I’ll be masked, too, during the act.
Height preference? Please select from the list below. Click on ‘none’ if you have no preference.
I click on 1.95 m. Landon’s exact height.
Clothes?
No Preference.
Tattoos?
Yes.
Lan has some, but they’re hidden.
Setting?
No Preference.
Time?
After sunset and before midnight.
Day?
No preference.
Safe word. Upon saying this word, your partner would halt the act immediately.
Smoke.
Enter your limits below (please be as specific as possible).
Gagging. Drugging. Any use of an enhancement drug.
Those are the only things that make my skin crawl. They bring back memories of when I breathed wrong, existed wrong, and fought but found no way out.
After I review my selection, I click Submit.
Thank you for your selections. We’ll notify you once we’ve paired you with a compatible partner. Please note that this process might take a while until we’re confident we’re able to satisfy your choices.
That makes sense.
I spend a few more minutes reviewing and rereading my answers to make sure everything is correct. I’m about to exit when a red dot appears at the top of the screen.
I click on it and freeze.
Congratulations, we have found a partner with your specific criteria. We’ll temporarily share your location with your partner during the hour(s) you decide the act will happen.
Details of the meeting are below. If you wish to reschedule or cancel, click here to do so.
I scroll down to the details, my heart hammering so hard, I think I’ll faint.
This is really happening.
4
CECILY
“Where are you going?”
I come to a halt in the middle of the living room, plaster a smile that’s awkward at best, and face my best friend, Ava.
She’s staring at me with a hand hiked up on her waist. Ava is blonde, slender, and the cliché of a bombshell social butterfly.
No clue how someone like her became friends with someone like me. I’m a year older than her but feel like I’m a generation away. Where she’s loud, I’m reserved. Where she’s extroverted, I’m introverted. Where she’s searching for trouble at a club, I’m all for quiet nights in.