Total pages in book: 64
Estimated words: 59913 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 300(@200wpm)___ 240(@250wpm)___ 200(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 59913 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 300(@200wpm)___ 240(@250wpm)___ 200(@300wpm)
Amber was full of questions tonight and I understood it was just the natural curiosity of a child.
I answered her the best I could before reading her a bedtime story. Alice had already given her a bath and once her story was over she fell asleep as usual.
I found Gia in the living room staring into space. “Are you okay?”
“I didn’t stop to think, what your coming here like this would do to her. I didn’t…”
I knew she was about to piss me off so I braced myself and told myself not to react poorly to whatever stupidity came out of her mouth.
“I think we should cool it for a while.”
“No!”
“What do you mean no? She’s already confused she thinks you’re going to be her new daddy.”
“She’s not confused, I am going to be here new daddy. I told you from the start that I want you both.” Breathe Evan, just in and out. No need to go off the rails like a teenage girl.
“She already has a father.”
“Don’t piss me off. I don’t want to replace him in her heart, only yours. As for her already having a father, he’s not here, I am.” She opened her mouth to speak but I cut her off.
“Did you hear her? Did you hear her talk about her friend? You think I don’t want to take her to the park and play on the swings? You think I don’t want her to have a father she can turn to?”
“This is too much for me to deal with right now.” I took a deep breath and prayed for peace of mind and the strength not to strangle her.
“What exactly is your problem with this? You want to cling onto the past so much you forget to live in the here and now? Is that good for you, is it good for her?”
“I use to think I had a problem with him, but it’s not him it’s you. I look at you and see the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen in my life.”
She didn’t look like she believed me but I carried on. “I see someone full of promise and life and I want that so bad. But you prefer to bury your head in the sand.”
I saw her resolve as she folded her lips and fisted her hands. But if she thought for one second that that shit would sway me she was mistaken.
“You accused me of wanting to pretend that he didn’t exist. I think you’re the one who’s pretending that he’s still here.”
“I think you should leave now.”
“And I think you should calm the hell down. First of all, when I took you last night that was to seal the deal.”
“That means from now on all your decisions concerning us are made together. Since you seem to be blind to the facts I’ll take it from here.”
“Blind to the facts, what does that mean?”
“It means that I’m standing here in front of you alive and well and offering you all the love in my heart, but you’re willing to throw it away for something that can never be again.”
“How am I supposed to feel about that? Don’t you think my love is as worthy as his, is that it?”
“Of course not. You don’t understand.”
“How can I when you won’t talk to me about this?”
She stood before me wringing her hands and looking miserable. I wanted to shake some sense into her but knew that wouldn’t help. She’s gonna have to come to the truth on her own.
I know now that I can’t force her to forget him, but I’ll be damned if she’s going to shut me out. I pulled her to me and held her close, hating that she was feeling whatever it was that put that look on her face.
“Take your time and think about whatever you need to. Just know that I’m not going anywhere and I will never let you shut me out again. Do you understand?”
She didn’t answer quick enough and I shook her gently. “I said do you understand?”
“Yes.”
“Good, let’s go to bed, I’m hungry.”
21
I guess I was more annoyed with her than I thought because when I took her to bed my hands weren’t as gentle as they could’ve been.
Her clothes ended up in shreds on the floor next to the bed and when I put her on her back it wasn’t with any of the finesse I’d shown her the night before.
I buried my head between her thighs and ate her pussy until my jaw hurt and her throat went raw from screaming and pleading.
I didn’t go easy on her even when she cried out for mercy, but ignored her pleas and whining. I shut her out and concentrated on abating my anger before I did something worst.
My cock was straining to get inside her again, he remembered what it felt like to be in that warm wet hole that was made for him.