Total pages in book: 86
Estimated words: 81423 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 407(@200wpm)___ 326(@250wpm)___ 271(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 81423 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 407(@200wpm)___ 326(@250wpm)___ 271(@300wpm)
When he rubbed my prostate with his fingers, it took everything inside me not to blow my load right then. “You need to hurry and fuck me, or I’m coming like this.” I wiggled my ass, trying to get more, get everything.
“If you insist,” he said, cheeky cockiness in his voice.
I tugged open the drawer, grabbed the lube, and tossed it to him.
“Roll over,” Law said, and I did, just in time to see him kneeling there, jacking his cock with a lubed hand.
He squirted more on his fingers before pushing them inside me. “Fuuuuck.” My eyes rolled back.
“None of that yet.” He winked, smiled, and damned if I didn’t feel it in my chest. I whimpered at the emptiness when he pulled away some, but then he was spreading my legs, pushing them back. His cock nudged my hole, worked inside, our stares holding on to each other, in a clash of blue.
I savored the stretch, the perfection of being full of Law, until he was buried deep and we exhaled together. My hands rubbed up and down his chest. It was slick with perspiration. Neither of us moved, just took in the moment, of Law inside me.
I pulled my hand away and licked the salty taste of him from my fingers. He trembled, and I felt it vibrate through me, which made me do the same.
“Oh fuck. I love that feeling,” he said, and I knew my hole had spasmed around him.
He smiled, then leaned forward and kissed the tip of my nose. Such a tender moment, it made me ache, made me hurt, but also made me feel incredibly special.
“What?” he asked.
“Nothing. Just fuck me.”
And he did. Thrust and pulled back before thrusting again. He didn’t look away. He watched me, studied me, touched my face and my hair, until the moment was almost too intimate for me. I turned us, cried out when I was empty of him. Got Law on his back and straddled him, and he held on to his cock and worked his way inside again.
I palmed his chest as I rode him, dug my nails into his pecs. Law held my waist as he fucked up into me, made me see stars, made me feel like I was floating in space with them.
I fisted my cock and began to stroke myself, rising and falling into him, matching his movements as he fucked me.
“Christ, Remy. I don’t know how much longer I can last.”
“Me either,” I replied, my balls full and ready to unleash. I worked myself faster, both my dick and my movements on Law. I dropped my head back and arched my back as my orgasm washed over me and I shot all over my hand, my stomach, and Law’s chest.
His hold on me tightened, and he thrust up, his cock twitching inside me as he spilled his release deep…so fucking deep.
“God, I love coming inside you,” he said softly, pulling me down, kissing my forehead, my temple.
As good as it felt, as much as I loved being with him, a deep melancholy clung to my soul. This sadness I couldn’t shake, that I never shook. It was often in hiding when I was with Law, but even he couldn’t hold it at bay right then.
He couldn’t be expected to fight it for me forever either.
I climbed off him and lay on my side. He rolled to his too, and we stayed that way, simply staring at each other.
Sometime later, I reached over and touched his face, danced my fingers along his cheekbones, then down his shoulder, savoring him, taking him in. “I think…” My voice cracked, and I wanted to close my mouth, lock the words inside me, but I knew they were right, knew I had to get them out. If not, I would ruin us. And I would never be happy. I’d depend on him too much, and he would always have to hold parts of his life back for me. “I think I need to go home by myself.”
His brows pulled together. “Remy?”
“I… I need to get my thoughts in the right place. I need to work through some shit.”
He pulled away, sat up, and gave me his back as he rested on the edge of the bed. I went to him, wrapped my arms and legs around him from behind.
“Are you ending this?” he asked. “I was wrong before, when I did it. No good came from us being apart. We love each other too much. I can wait. You don’t have to come out. We’ll figure it out.”
There was no one in the world as loving as Lawson Grant. When he gave his heart, it was fully and completely. I would never stop trying to deserve it. “I’m not ending this. You know I love you. But I need to learn how to be good for you…how to be good for me. It’s harder when you’re there because then I want to cling to you and not let go.”