Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 76696 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 383(@200wpm)___ 307(@250wpm)___ 256(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 76696 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 383(@200wpm)___ 307(@250wpm)___ 256(@300wpm)
Brian shook his head. “Haven't you seen what happened in the elevator? She didn’t want to step inside because of us.”
I put down the bottle and let out a sigh. “She'll get used to it, Brian. This is all new for her.”
Brian sighed. “I hope you're right, Zach.”
I punched him lightly against the shoulder, grinning. “I'm always right, dude.”
Brian snorted, his expression brightening. “You wish.”
I smiled to myself, lifting the bottle to my lips for another gulp. And I truly hoped that I was right. For Brian's and Amber's sake.
Amber
Laughter.
There is their laughter.
And sobs. My sobs.
And moans. Their moans. And grunts. Their grunts.
They ring in my head.
And the smells.
Sweat. The stench of their sweat. Disgusting.
And blood. So much blood. Acid, sweet in my nose and sticky on my skin. Sickening.
Stale cigarette smoke and beer. Their clothes smell of it. And their bodies. Revolting.
And then another smell. Everywhere. Something I've never smelt before. Indescribable. Disgusting. Revolting. Burnt into my mind. This smell. How it sticks to my skin just like the blood but so much worse.
And their faces. Taunting. Leering. Lusting.
Frightening. Menacing. Pitiless.
The last faces I'll ever see. Die. I will die. They tell me so.
And I want to. Plead them even. Plead them to kill me, to end this.
Death is better. Liberating.
So much pain. Unbearable.
Agony. Hot, burning, tearing, ripping. Pure agony.
And the feel of them. On my skin. Their hands. Rough and cruel.
Their bodies. On top of me. Crushing. Unrelenting.
And the pain. So much pain. Too much.
A scream tears itself from the depth of my body and then I can't stop.
I scream and scream. But all I hear is their laughter, their taunts, their grunts...
Blinding light penetrated my eyelids and tore me from the confines of my nightmare. Only it wasn’t just a simple nightmare, a simple phantasm of my mind. No, those were my memories. Burnt into my mind.
Forever.
Would it ever stop? Would they ever leave me alone? Would this day ever stop haunting my dreams? Would there ever be a night without nightmares; a night that didn’t let me relive the horrors of that day?
No.
The answer was immediate, and as true as it was frightening. Not in all those years had they gone away, and they never would.
Never.
I opened my eyes and blinked a few times to clear my vision until my eyes found the reason for the end of my nightmare. Brian stood in the doorway, his hand on the light switch and his horrified eyes on me. Behind him towered Zach, his horror matching that of my brother. I must have woken them with my screaming.
My throat felt sore and my body was slick with sweat. Not their sweat, I reminded myself and shuddered as the memorized stench filled my nose. Pumpkin was curled up at the end of my bed. He had gotten used to my nightmares and didn’t hide under the bed anymore.
“Amber?” Brian whispered and took a hesitant step toward me. He wanted to console me, maybe even hug me. It was written all over his face.
I stared down at the blankets covering my body. Shame rushed through me. “I'm sorry I woke you.”
“Don't worry,” Zach said quickly.
“You were talking in your sleep and then you started screaming,” Brian said in a very quiet voice.
I talked in my sleep?
My stomach twisted. God, what had I said? The thought that I might have revealed more about what happened made me sick. I lifted my gaze. “I...I talked?”
Brian grimaced before his expression turned apologetic. “Not much.”
Not much? I could barely breathe. I hated to lose control and that was exactly what happened whenever I fell asleep. I swallowed past the lump in my throat. “What...what did I say?” I stared at Brian pleadingly. He hesitated and chanced a look at Zachary who was still standing behind him.
“You...you didn’t say much.” Brian turned his back to me. This was too much for him. He wasn’t used to dealing with this, with me.
“Please, I need to know,” I whisper.
Brian's shoulders started shaking. Was he crying? I clutched the blankets, needing something to hold on to. Zach stared at my brother for several moments before his eyes met mine. There was sadness in them, but no pity, and I was grateful for that. “You mumble, so I couldn't make out everything. But you said. 'Stop, please stop. Please don't...” He stopped and took a deep breath through his nose, his nostrils flaring. He looks as if it cost him all his willpower to say the next words. “Please, it hurts.”
I nodded. “Thanks, Zachary,” I choked out. I felt sick; it was only a matter of minutes before I'd throw up.
“Night, Amber,” Brian said in a strained whisper. He closed my door and I was alone.
I sat on my bed until I was certain that Zach and Brian had returned to their rooms and I wouldn't meet them in the corridor. My legs shook as I stood and it took all my strength to grab a bathrobe and walk out of my room. It was dark in the corridor. Light spilled out from beneath the doors to the other two bedrooms.
The darkness threatened to swallow me. I tiptoed toward the bathroom and closed the door behind me as soon as I'd entered. I switched the light on, stumbled toward the toilette bowl and threw up. I gripped the seat tightly as dizziness flooded my mind. I sunk to my knees and leaned my head against the edge of the bathtub. My eyes closed on their own accord while I drew in quick shallow breaths through my nose. I felt so drained, and weak, and old, and lifeless.
CHAPTER FOUR
Zachary
The bowl with cereal in front of me on the table sat untouched. I wasn’t hungry. Probably for the first time in my life the mere sight of food was making me sick.
Last night. Those screams and the look in Amber's eyes. I pushed the bowl away, not caring that milk spilled over.
Fuck, I couldn’t forget those terrified eyes.
I didn’t sleep more than two hours after that. And my sleep was far from sound. I was haunted by nightmares, filled with her screams, not that my dreams were even close to being as horrible as hers.