Total pages in book: 66
Estimated words: 76696 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 383(@200wpm)___ 307(@250wpm)___ 256(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 76696 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 383(@200wpm)___ 307(@250wpm)___ 256(@300wpm)
Zach
I ground my teeth together to keep back the things I wanted to call my father. He was a cheating, misogynistic, money-grubbing asshole but he was still my father. When I was sure I wouldn’t curse him, I said. “Don’t talk about Amber like that. You don’t know anything about Amber, or about our relationship. I can’t leave Amber because I love her.” Shock shot through my body at the realization. I did love her. I should have realized it sooner.
“Love, please don’t be ridiculous, Zach.”
I glared. “Just because you aren’t capable of loving anyone except for yourself that doesn’t mean I’m the same way. I’m nothing like you.”
“You are. Tell me now that you’ve never once considered cheating on Amber and then maybe I believe that you are less like me than I think.”
I tensed, and my father let out a sharp laugh. “Maybe you aren’t ready to accept it yet. Keep your Amber for now, string her along, but mark my words: that girl won’t be at your side once you take over my company.”
“Coming here was a mistake,” I said firmly. “Amber and I are leaving now.” I turned around to pick up Amber in the kitchen.
“Yes, run away. But you can’t run from the truth of who you are, Zach.” I pushed through the door and almost ran toward the kitchen. Amber was inside, staring out of the window – alone.
“Where’s my mother?” I asked.
Amber glanced over her shoulder. She looked shaken. “She said she needed to go upstairs.”
God, was my mother getting wasted with Amber in the house? “I need to check on her,” I said and went upstairs. Mother was in the bedroom, bent over her vanity. I approached her cautiously and put a hand on her shoulder. “Mom?” She raised her head a few inches. The remains of cocaine dusted the vanity and her chin. “I thought you stopped with that shit?” I whispered harshly. I helped her to her feet and led her toward the bed, where she lay down with a hazy smile. “I did. For a little while. A little while. But I need it to feel something, to feel numb, and forget.”
Did she realize that she contradicted herself? There was only one thing cocaine did: ruining your life. “Does Father know?” The answer was obvious. Cocaine was expensive.
“He tells me to be careful.” I closed my eyes for a moment, then pressed a kiss to my mother’s forehead and left. I wasn’t even sure when I’d found my mother like that the first time. I was young, maybe seven, and father had lost it completely. When I came back downstairs, Father was putting on his coat. “Where are you going? Mother just sniffed coke, you can’t leave her alone.”
“Nina is on her way.”
“You’re going to let the maid take care of Mother?”
He glared. “It’s worked for the last few years. Now leave, and get your affairs sorted. I’ll be back in a couple of hours. Don’t worry, I’ll spend the night with your mother.”
I wanted to hit him so much in that moment. Instead I walked into the kitchen and took Amber’s hand before leading her outside. Father was already getting into his Porsche when we stepped onto the porch. “Is your mother alright?”
Nina waved at me from a way down the street. “She’s…as she’s always been.” That was the only way to describe it. I couldn’t remember a time when my mother hadn’t been addicted to something. Pills, anti-depressants, alcohol, pott, cocaine. She was getting worse at hiding it; that was what really worried me.
Amber was awfully silent during our drive back to Boston. She was probably shocked by the state of my family. Some people equaled money with happiness, but that wasn’t true. I didn’t think my mother had been truly happy in many years. “Are you okay?” I asked eventually.
She looked almost surprised that I’d spoken as if she’d forgotten that she wasn’t alone in the car. “Yeah. Tired. The country club was exhausting.”
“I know. It’ll get better. Eventually your facial muscles learn to keep a constant smile and the right words will come naturally.”
Amber crunched her brows together as if she doubted that. And maybe she was right. Some people just weren’t meant to be part of this kind of backstabbing, two-faced group.
When we returned to the apartment, Amber led me into my room at once and began undressing me almost desperately. I was startled by her initiative. She slipped my shirt over my head, her lips hot against my chest as she kissed me. Her fingers fumbled with my belt, then the buttons of my business pants. Finally she pushed them down. I was already rock hard. Her expression was so intense, so focused. I sank down on the bed and Amber removed my last pieces of clothing, freeing my cock.
“Amber, are you okay?” She didn’t reply. She knelt beside me on the bed, bent her head over me and closed her mouth around my cock. I closed my eyes and put a hand on her head, stroking her hair as she worked her mouth up and down, licking and sucking. It was only the second time that she’d given me a blowjob, and I’d missed it. I loved the feel of her warm, wet mouth around my cock. I shifted my hips up and down. “Yeah, that feels so good, Amber. Yes, honey.”
Sometimes her teeth graced me by accident but I was so horny by Amber’s boldness that I didn’t even mind. I could feel myself getting closer and closer, and when Amber cupped my balls and began massaging them, I almost came at once. “Amber, I’m going to come,” I warned. I tried to move her away, because I didn’t want to come in her mouth, but she didn’t budge. Instead she sucked even harder and I couldn’t hold it in anymore, I threw my head back and exploded in her mouth. I groaned, as my cock twitched and my balls tensed. Amber kept sucking and it felt so fucking good. I opened my eyes and watched her sucking my softening cock slower and slower. That was a fucking fantastic sight. I ran my hand gently over her head and kept my eyes on her as she kept her lips on me until the aftershocks of my orgasm were over. She sat back on her hunches and wiped her mouth. I sat up and helped her out of her dress and bra, suckled and licked and kissed her breasts as I peeled off her panties. Then I slowly moved down her body and started licking her. She was already wet but I took my time nibbling and teasing her clit. I pushed one finger into her and began pumping slowly as my mouth worked her clit. I wasn’t sure what had gotten into Amber to make her so horny, and I didn’t care. Seeing her like that was fucking hot.