Total pages in book: 110
Estimated words: 106935 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 535(@200wpm)___ 428(@250wpm)___ 356(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 106935 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 535(@200wpm)___ 428(@250wpm)___ 356(@300wpm)
I shiver.
It’s still hot.
But I hate how hot it is.
David beams, then grins at his dad, clearly proud, clearly pleased with his pop. Pop. This is so weird. “Told you he’s the best,” David says to me as he squeezes out.
Then he’s off, and strategic, smart Nick Adams, who ferried me away from the press scrum at the conference three months ago to ask me out, has once again engineered a moment with me. He wastes no time. “I need to apologize for being a dick,” he says.
Wait. What? He’s apologizing? That’s a thing men do? “What do you mean?”
“When I first arrived. When we first spoke, and I gave you the third degree. I was frazzled. I came here to meet David. He’d texted me and asked me to join, but when I walked in and you were here, I stopped thinking.” He gazes at me with heat and fire. “You were so fucking stunning, and all I could think was how badly I wanted to see you tomorrow, to talk to you, to tell you a bunch of things, to get you alone. And then I was thinking how lucky I was to see you tonight.”
His vulnerable admissions—both sexy and borderline emotional—chip away at my annoyance and at my hurt.
“And I didn’t want to scare you off by telling you I was relocating here,” he says as he keeps going, reading my mind. “I planned to tell you tomorrow. I couldn’t wait to see you. And then I thought I can tell her tonight. I can see her tonight too. And then…all of a sudden, you were Layla. And I was a jerk.”
My heart softens from all those lovely admissions. Every single one. “I get it. The whole thing was just…a shock. But you have to know I planned to tell you tomorrow too that Lola’s my business name. I wanted you to know who I am and who my mother is.”
Just her. That’s all I want to reveal for now.
Nick lifts a brow in question. Since he just spilled his truths, I unspool some more of mine. “She runs Beautique, the makeup conglomerate. Well, she’s the founder. Anna Mayweather,” I say, and that’s something at least about my family. Now he knows that much, and the look in his eyes says holy shit, she founded a wildly successful Fortune 100 company, rather than you’re that girl from that night. “And when I started The Makeover, I didn’t want to be connected to Anna Mayweather or Beautique. I just wanted to do my own thing. Be my own woman. I funded The Makeover on my own with my own money from my videos, and I brought on a partner in Geeta. She codes. I want this to be all mine, and ours, so when I was in Miami, I was there as Lola Jones. I registered as Lola Jones. I don’t want special treatment as Anna’s daughter.”
There. That’s what I wanted to tell him tomorrow. At least I can walk away tonight knowing I’ve said the most important thing to him, but still I add, “It didn’t feel like a lie to me. I am Lola, and I am Layla, and that night with you I wanted to feel like I was just…a woman with a man for the first time.”
He steals a glance at the front of the diner, then darts a hand under the table and squeezes my knee. “I’m glad I was your first, beautiful,” he says, and there’s resolution in his tone, like maybe for a little while earlier he struggled with what was a lie and what was the truth. I’m glad he figured out on his own that I didn’t lie about my inexperience.
“Me too,” I say, sliding a hand under the table, covering his. In no time, he links our fingers with a desperate grasp.
My insides flutter. I feel warm all over.
“And when I was with you, I didn’t want to feel like”—he stops, like the words forming in his throat are uncomfortable. But he pushes through—“I didn’t want to be a guy who had a kid. I didn’t want to have the inevitable conversation of yeah, my son’s twenty-one, and you can do the math. He was born when I was seventeen, and the only way his mom and I could go to college was if my ex-wife’s parents raised him for those four years.” He winces, then adds, bitterly, “By their rules.”
My throat tightens with emotions. I want to hug him. “Oh, Nick,” I say, squeezing his fingers tighter under the table. There are details I’m dying to ask about. But I’d only be satisfying my own curiosity. He’s told me how he feels—in words and tone. So I say sympathetically, “That’s a lot too.”
“When I was with you, I just wanted to be a man romancing a woman,” he says, almost embarrassed, but then he shrugs, like he’s all good with the man he was that night. With the choice he made.