Total pages in book: 90
Estimated words: 88078 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 440(@200wpm)___ 352(@250wpm)___ 294(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 88078 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 440(@200wpm)___ 352(@250wpm)___ 294(@300wpm)
And why the hell was she still sick? Wasn’t that shit supposed to be almost gone?
Worry for my family settled heavy in my gut and didn’t leave for a long time.
Chapter 8
Kate
The second time Shane called, I let Aunt Ellie answer the phone and pass it around to the kids.
The third time, I completely left the house.
But by the fourth time, Uncle Mike and Aunt Ellie had gone back to Oregon, and I’d had no choice but to talk to him, at least until I could hand the phone off again.
“Hello?” I answered flatly.
“Katie? It’s me¸” he said tentatively.
“Hey, Shane. I’ll get Sage.”
“Wait!” he called before I could pull the phone away from my face.
“What’s up?”
“How are the kids doing? How are you doing?” he asked, his voice almost desperate.
“Kids are doing good. Keller threw a huge-ass fit today because he had to share his Legos with Gavin. Sage had today off because the teachers are doing report cards. Gunner keeps putting my makeup in his mouth, and his face was covered in lipstick all day. It’s the eighteen-hour stuff, and I couldn’t get it off.”
He laughed, and I smiled.
“And you?” he asked cautiously.
“I’m good.”
“Have you been sick?”
“Nope, don’t worry. I’m on top of things.”
“That’s not why I asked.”
“Yes it is.” I huffed out a small laugh. “It’s fine.”
“I’m really sorry, Katie.”
“Nothing to be sorry about,” I replied smoothly. I wasn’t playing that game with him again. I was so tired of the push and pull that seemed to happen constantly. As far as I was concerned, if he was sorry, he wouldn’t keep saying shitty things over and over.
I knew his background. He’d spent his entire childhood shuffled in and out of different foster homes. I knew that he’d always had a hard time thinking before he spoke, especially when he was emotional. We had that in common. However, I had never been someone who lashed out in anger like Shane did. Our histories were completely opposite, and because of that I’d forgiven him a lot. But at some point, you had to grow the fuck up and act like an adult.
“Stop acting like that,” Shane said.
“Like what?”
“Like I didn’t hurt your feelings!” he growled into the phone.
“You didn’t. You were worried about the kids—I got it.”
“Goddammit.” He sighed.
We were silent for long seconds before he started speaking again.
“Do you know how hard this is for me?” he asked. “You’re sick, and I can’t do shit about it, because I’m fucking stuck here. It doesn’t matter how sick you’re feeling or what’s happening back home. I’m. Stuck. Here.”
“I know, that must be hard—”
“I’m sorry, okay? I shouldn’t have snapped at you the last time we talked. I wasn’t mad at you.”
“Okeydokey.”
“Knock it the fuck off.”
“Shane, I don’t want to go back and forth with you. You hate me, you want me, you think I’m cool then I’m irritating. I’m pregnant and taking care of four kids under eight years old. I don’t have the time or energy to worry about how you feel about me.”
“Katie—” He paused for a long moment. “I was frustrated that you were having a hard time, and I didn’t react well. It’s not because I think you aren’t taking really good care of the kids…It’s because I was angry I wasn’t there to take care of you and the kids. Okay?”
“Well, you’re chatty tonight,” I replied, the joke falling flat. I didn’t know what to do with the words pouring out of his mouth. I didn’t know how to reply.
“Shit, Kate. It took me two weeks to talk to you. I had a lot of time to run through the apology in my head,” he grumbled, making me snort.
“Just…tone it down, okay?” I asked, moving out of the kitchen where I’d been making dinner. “You don’t have to snap at me every time you’re worried or whatever. It’s exhausting and pisses me off.”
“Yeah, and you do the silent-treatment shit like a champ.”
“Damn straight.”
“You’re okay?” He suddenly changed the subject.
“Yeah, Shane, I’m good. Getting rounder. The doctor says that’s supposed to happen.”
“I bet you’ll be cute as fuck. Oh, speaking of how cute you’ll be—they have computers here so we can Skype. Can you set that up on your end?”
“Shane, I’m a web designer. I’ve got Skype.”
“Awesome. Shit, my time’s up,” he said as I heard someone speaking in the background. “I’ll call again when I can. Tell the kids I love them, okay?”
“Oh crap! You didn’t even get a chance to talk to them.”
“I’ll email you later today with my Skype info, and we can plan out a chat sometime this week—they’ll be stoked.”
“Yeah, they’ll freak. Be careful, okay?”
“Always.”
I waited for him to hang up, but after a few moments I could still hear him breathing.
“Hey, Katie?” he called quietly.
“Yeah?”
“I’m really glad you’re feeling better, beautiful. Take care of my son, okay?”