Total pages in book: 145
Estimated words: 135792 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 679(@200wpm)___ 543(@250wpm)___ 453(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 135792 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 679(@200wpm)___ 543(@250wpm)___ 453(@300wpm)
“You didn’t. I never felt that way before. It was hot.” Knox unwrapped himself from Liv so they could start walking. He tentatively slid his hand into Liv’s and felt an exhilarating tremor in his heart when Liv squeezed back. “It made me realize I never knew what sex should be. I went through the motions, but I wasn’t there. With you, it was so fucking raw. Like I wanted to eat you alive. And since I knew women don’t do that for me, I freaked out.”
Liv’s hold on his hand tightened, and he rubbed his thumb along Knox’s hand as if he were afraid Knox might break otherwise. But this time, Knox let him do it and chose not to take it personally. If Liv wanted to take care of him, maybe Knox should let him?
“If it happens again, you can talk to me. Or we can... you know... maybe you need to hold back a bit on the sex? Have more time to get around the idea that you’re gay?”
Knox’s stomach clenched with nerves, but the darkness and walking side by side made talking easier.
“Are you saying you don’t wanna do it again? Was it too weird for you?”
Liv let go of his hand and pulled Knox under his arm. “What? No. It was great. I mean, so hot it has my brain buzzing. But maybe you want to slow down? It’s a big change, so don’t feel pressured.”
Knox snorted and pushed closer. “I don’t wanna slow down. I want it all. I feel like I have years of fucking to catch up on. And maybe this is the attitude that made all the women flock to you. You listen. You make me feel safe, like you won’t judge me.”
Liv stalled, taking a deep breath, but just as Knox wanted to ask if he was all right, Liv offered him a wide grin and leaned in for a sweet, unexpected smooch. God, somehow he smelled even better now.
“Well, I wouldn’t. So this man, and his little friend are ready to fulfill all your secret fantasies.”
Knox snorted and slid his arm around Liv’s waist. “Not so little. Ask me how I know. Seriously though?” He glanced forward, to make sure the other guys were far enough to not overhear him. “I had no idea it could feel this good. I was pretty ready for it to hurt like fuck and disappoint me on top of that.”
Liv’s little fist-pump wasn’t as discreet as he probably thought, but Knox didn’t point it out as Liv spoke. “You deserve to have fun. I’ll always make sure you do, okay?”
“I trust you,” Knox said simply, because this was what it came down to. Whatever happened, he trusted Liv would at least try to do what’s best for them. And that included sex.
He had no idea what they were to each other now, but maybe it didn’t matter. Weren’t they the same best friends who’d kill for each other and now just added fucking to the equation?
Liv sighed. “Thanks. The past half an hour was… tough.”
Knox gave him a curious glance. “Why? You thought I’d leave? After what we’ve been through? Where would I even go with my fucked up heart without your lockpicking skills?” He patted Liv’s side to lighten the mood.
“I don’t take you for granted,” Liv said, and he sounded serious for once.
Warmth flooded Knox’s insides despite the chill in the air. “Come on, man. My teeth are gonna rot. Is that what you say to all your girls?” he asked to hide how much it affected him.
Liv snorted and kissed his cheekbone. “Only to the ones I picked as mothers for my children,” he said, which was confusing, because Liv had no kids.
“You’re such a dumbass. At least with me there won’t be any child support to pay, ‘cause you’re sure as fuck not knocking me up. Feel free to try though.” He winked at Liv, exhilarated when he thought back to Liv coming inside him.
“A challenge,” Liv said, and his hand trailed down Knox’s back, petting his ass in a deliciously teasing motion. “I like that. I’ll only stop when it happens.”
Which was a weird way to promise a forever, but Knox would take that with a grain of salt. He didn’t want to think about the future when they didn’t have a place to call their own and depended on Ezra for tomorrow’s food.
“Sooo… You sure you haven’t done it with a guy before?” Knox side-eyed him, thinking back to Liv’s confession about gay porn. They could already see the lights of the house, so they didn’t have that much time, and he was itching to know.
Liv hummed and leaned in, his whisper so hot it pulled on Knox’s balls. “You were my first.”
Knox could only hope the novelty didn’t wear off any time soon. “Give me time to practice, and I’ll learn how to deepthroat,” he promised in an attempt to flirt. Strange how natural it felt.