Total pages in book: 147
Estimated words: 137176 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 686(@200wpm)___ 549(@250wpm)___ 457(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 137176 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 686(@200wpm)___ 549(@250wpm)___ 457(@300wpm)
He was losing himself.
To me.
The proof was in his beautiful sapphire eyes.
I wanted to hold on to the moment forever, but my body wasn’t going to allow it. Neither was his. Like me, Cass was hovering right on the edge. His fingers wound through my wet hair and his mouth slammed down on mine again. He grunted and moaned even as he kissed me.
“Come with me,” he urged between kisses as he pounded against me.
“I am, baby,” I assured him before another thrust momentarily stole my breath. I slid my fingers into his hair and pressed my forehead against his. “You’re inside me, Cass. So fucking deep inside me. I can feel it everywhere,” I breathed.
“Fuck,” Cass growled and then his lips covered mine again, and with a couple of twists of his hips as he slammed into me, it was the beginning of the end. The strain on the coil inside of me broke. A rush of sensation like I’d never known flooded me. My body drew up tight in the most blissful kind of agony as cum began to spew from my dick. I shouted when all the pressure inside of me collided and then sent me flying. I was dimly aware of Cass’s mouth resting against mine as he thrust against me a few more times and then he was shouting out in relief. He kept jerking against me as he found his own release.
I would have loved to see what he looked like when he came but I was too busy riding my own high. There was nothing peaceful or quiet about it. It was color and light. It was warm and cool. It stole my breath only to renew itself as each wave of bliss rolled over me.
I had no idea how long it took for reality to return to me, but when it did, I found myself in the same position I’d been in, only now I had Cass’s big chest pressed against mine. His mouth was resting on my collarbone, so I could feel his heavy breaths sawing in and out of him. Despite the cooling water from the shower, the liquid covering our dicks was hot and slick. I could feel every jerk of his body as another wave of sensation hit him.
I’d done that to him. I’d given him that. There was no way that what had just happened between us had been just sex. It was more.
It had to be.
I’d let Cass see things I’d never let anyone else see. I’d given him something I’d never given to anyone else. That meant it had to be more.
Right?
It was a while before Cass’s mouth searched out mine. His kiss was still deep and hungry. It was searching and stealing at the same time.
I never wanted it to end.
The cold water from the shower kept my wish from happening, but Cass’s whispered words against my ear made me not care.
“JJ… my JJ.”
My.
Mine. Such a small word that held so much fucking power.
I was Cass’s and he was mine and that was all that mattered.
CHAPTER 15
Cass
Iknew he was gone the moment I opened my eyes.
It took me several long seconds before I forced myself to look and then run my hand over JJ’s side of the bed. The covers were thrown aside and the clothes he’d been wearing the night before—the ones he’d taken off piece by achingly slow piece right in front of me—were gone. The small dip in the pillow next to mine was proof that he had been in bed with me for at least a little while.
That meant what had taken place in the shower really had happened. It hadn’t been one of my many dreams that had always led to JJ being safely wrapped in my arms.
I remembered all of it. Finding JJ on the floor the night before, his soft, pain-filled whispers calling out to me. Holding him in my arms as I’d begged him not to leave me.
Not again.
I remembered when JJ’s breath had evened out after I’d gathered him into my arms, and I’d logically known that he’d only fallen asleep. Unfortunately, logic hadn’t played a role in the cruel reminder that he and I had been in virtually the same position the night he had been shot. Even as the sun had begun to stream through the kitchen windows and I’d been lost in sleep, my mind had begged anyone who was listening to never let anything take JJ from me again.
After he had woken me from the nightmare, I’d been relieved to discover he was okay. I hadn’t been expecting him to help me to my feet, let alone use his words and touch to get me moving. True, I probably could have dealt with the pain on my own if JJ had chosen to leave me on the floor, but from the moment he’d started telling me in one way or another to shut up as I’d argued with him, I’d given up the fight.