Total pages in book: 94
Estimated words: 95340 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 477(@200wpm)___ 381(@250wpm)___ 318(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 95340 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 477(@200wpm)___ 381(@250wpm)___ 318(@300wpm)
Sully: I mean, he’s pretty chill, so whatever you need to talk to him about, I’m sure he’d at least listen?
Lizzy: It’s about sex?
Sully: HOLY SHIT, ARE THE TWO OF YOU FUCKING? That fucker, I can’t believe he kept that shit from us.
Lizzy NO, we are NOT having sex. Calm down dude, that is not what this is about.
Sully: Oh. Well you used the word sex in a sentence, what was I supposed to think??? Rude.
Well now this is awkward. How should I phrase this so he doesn’t jump to more conclusions or GOD FORBID, go say something to Brodie?
Fuck my life.
Lizzy: So basically…we’ve hung out a few times. The night you guys went to a movie, he and I walked and had ice cream.
Sully: Yawn
Lizzy: LOL OMG
Why is he like this?
Sully: We give him all that alone time, and he leaves the house to go for ICE CREAM? I have failed him. Big time.
Sully: On behalf of the hockey boys at 592 Clarke Lane, I apologize.
Lizzy: Stop being so dramatic. It was nice.
Sully: Nice? Another dagger to the heart…
Lizzy: ANYWAY, as I was saying—we went for ice cream, went back to your place and fooled around a little.
Sully: Define “fooled around”
Lizzy: Nice try. No. Too personal
Lizzy: So we fooled around and then he came back to my place, fooled around some more.
Sully: THAT’S MY BOY! Now we’re talking.
Sully: So wait. What’s the issue???
Lizzy: Welllllll I guess the “issue” is that I’m trying to figure out if he’s serious about anything or if I’m just being used for sex.
Sully: You said you didn’t have sex.
Lizzy: Wrong choice of words then. I’m trying to figure out if he might be interested in something serious or if he just wants to fool around?
Sully: I mean, Brodie’s a good guy, but he’s not always the best at communicating his intentions. Hence the reason he holes up in his room most of the time; to avoid socializing which includes a healthy dose of communicating.
Lizzy: Yeah, that’s what I’m afraid of. I don’t want to jump to conclusions, but I also don’t want to be naïve about this.
I also don’t want my heart to get stomped on if I let him worship my body but, at the same time, neglecting my heart and my feelings.
Sully: Look, I'll be honest with you. Brodie's definitely a fan of the casual vibe when it comes to dating because he doesn’t do it very often. But I don’t think that necessarily means he's using you for sex.
Lizzy: Really? But do you think there's any chance he might want something more eventually?
Sully: I feel like I’m also the wrong person to ask. It’s not like my track record is glowing. I might date lots of people but do you see anyone around that has stuck? No. Not the poster boy for fidelity…
Lizzy: We’re not talking about YOU.
Sully: Let me put it to you this way: when he’s in—he’s in. He’s the most dedicated, committed bastard I’ve ever met. On the other hand, a relationship might not be his priority right now.
That does not make me feel any better.
In fact, it makes me feel worse.
Texting this dude was such a horrible idea. I shouldn’t have listened to my roommates.
Lizzy: So you're saying I shouldn't get my hopes up?
Sully: I wouldn't say that. It’s new. Lower the expectations. If you enjoy spending time with him and things are going well, there's no harm in seeing where it leads. Just keep your expectations in check and make sure you're both on the same page.
Lower the expectations.
Have fun.
Spend time with him.
See where it leads.
Got it.
I should write this down…
Lizzy: That makes sense. I just don't want to end up getting hurt if things don't turn out the way I’m hoping they will.
Sully: Anytime you need advice or someone to talk to, I'm here for you. Over you, under you. On top, on the bottom.
Oh my GOD. Talk about a guy who has sex on the brain 24/7.
Lizzy: Thanks, Sully.
Sully: No prob. Do I have your permission to get back to shitting now?
Lizzy: LOL OMG
Sully: Is that a yes?
Lizzy: Yes
Closing my phone, Sully's words had given me some much-needed clarity about my situation with Brodie, but they had also left me with more questions than answers.
Was I willing to take a chance on someone who might not be ready for a serious relationship?
Or was I better off cutting my losses and moving on?
Cutting my losses and not letting him between my legs anymore. Ugh, BUT HE DOES IT SO WELL.
Brodie and his freaking golden, magical tongue.
Brodie, who hasn’t actually tried to have sex with me.
Why though?
Why hasn’t he?
I get that he’s not as assertive and on the shyer side but he hasn’t even tried to dry hump me or anything like that…not even when I was on his lap the other night at his house. I would have fully committed to a lap dance if he’d given any indication that he was down for it.