Total pages in book: 68
Estimated words: 66259 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 331(@200wpm)___ 265(@250wpm)___ 221(@300wpm)
Estimated words: 66259 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 331(@200wpm)___ 265(@250wpm)___ 221(@300wpm)
I know Adrian’s off on his walk.
And here I am, in this spot with Killian.
I like him. I really, really like him. He’s a man I could love, but I would be too afraid to admit it out loud. That’s like jumping into the nearby gorge and hoping not to drown in the Columbia River.
Killian leans down on his elbows and kisses me. He’s so easy to fall for, I dig my hands into his thick hair. “I like you.”
His smile doesn’t leave his face, it just gets bigger. “I like you too.”
I lick my lips. “Why did you leave so abruptly? Back then?”
His smile falls immediately. “My parents divorced, and I had to go back to the UK with my dad for some things.”
“What things?” I lean up on my elbows. “To help with the divorce?”
He hesitates and then answers. “Yeah, it was hard for him, really hard.”
“And you too.” I cup his face. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there.”
“Well, you’re here now.”
I wrap my arms around his neck, then press my lips to his pulse. His heart is beating so fast I can feel it vibrate through my lips. That makes two of us. “You can kiss me now, Killian.”
He pulls the blanket back over us and hovers over me. “I guess the big question is, do I have to stop?”
“If I say never?”
“Then I’ll say, give us right now.”
My heart shakes a bit at that answer, but I promise it we’ll be okay this time, so I nod my head yes as his head descends. A few more days and this amazing man won’t belong to me anymore.
No, he’ll belong to the world.
To his fans.
And I’ll have to move on knowing that I at least had a few moments where someone like him held my hand, made me laugh, cry, and gave me memories I’ll never forget.
I won’t beg him to stay either.
I won’t count the seconds, mash them into minutes, hours, days, then stare at the clock when I know it’s time.
Killian ducks his head under the blanket. Before I know it, I’m completely bare to him, he shoves his tongue into me, stars explode in the sky and inside me, he’s carrying me until the end, his hands digging into my thighs, the imprint of his rings on my skin, the feel of his hot wet mouth working me the way I’ve always dreamed of, the pleasure and pain of wanting to jump into the abyss yet wanting to stay in the moment forever.
It feels like the beginning of the end. I move my hips slightly with the rhythm of his tongue and then, his fingertips as he dials my body in.
A tear slides down my cheek.
I ignore it.
Tears will do nothing in this situation.
My body explodes with pleasure then stills when his hands spread me wider until I can’t breathe. His hair tickles the sides of my thighs, I try to reach for his head, to pull him up, to feel him everywhere, but he doesn’t budge, he latches on.
One hand reaches up to slap a hand over my mouth. I’m confused until his other hand replaces his tongue, and I let out a scream that would have most definitely brought on all the mice and cougars. I bite into his palm, legs shaking, he rewards me by biting and then sucking the inside of one thigh, then the other.
I’m panting when he finally removes his hand from my mouth.
I hate that when he locks eyes with me, he looks devastated.
So I grab his face with both hands and pull him in for a kiss. “Maybe we can both be stars tonight?”
He looks up. “You mean like we can both be rockstars or live under the stars?”
I slowly move him off me and push him against the couch then crawl onto him.
His eyes are wild like the wilderness around me.
I tug his jeans down and pull him free.
He curses and squeezes his eyes shut. “No, you don’t have to—”
“Have to do what? I was just giving you some air.”
He opens one eye, suspicious. “Giving my dick some air, huh? Never heard that one.”
“Well now you have.” I grip him hard, sending his hips toward me, and then I lower my head while he watches with anticipation, before I duck under the blanket.
He tugs it away. “No. I get to watch you suck me. I get to see your eyes every time I go too deep, every time you choke on me, every time you pleasure me. I own it, because you’re mine, don’t take it away from me.”
I smile with sadness in my soul. “I won’t.”
He’s so huge I have to focus, and he’s gripping the blanket like he might die from trying not to finish.
I pull up and stare at him, cupping him. “You can let go, you know.”